March has been a whirlwind of a month, hence why I haven't written much (or anything). I've been very busy with work, where I feel more and more at ease and had, dare I say, a life-changing holiday. My family and I went to Lapland, Finland, where I experienced the most wonderful landscape, nature, cold and excursions. I've always said that the cold is my favorite experience, but having been there, I am sure of it. The calm, the silence and the iciness is just my vibe, you know. I can't wait to go back to the north and experience more. More dream holiday and discoveries have been planned in my head and I cannot wait to execute them!
Some skies that I have seen in Lapland. The Nothern Lights were such an experience!
Personally, this month has been a challenge. As the spring opens up and welcomes us into our new surroundings, I'm finding more and more people wanting to experience that little thing called love. I feel strange because I am not. I kept wondering this month how my heroines like Jane Austen and Emily Dickinson experienced those new features in their life as a mirror of mine: standing alone as others move forward. As I'm growing older, I am falling behind every person that I know by now, experience wise, and I don't know how to deal with that. I am trying to be kind to myself, feel good about the person that I am becoming, as on the other hand I feel excluded and alone. I need to be more assertive when people tell me about their experiences and let them be as they are. I am never judging any person because their experience is their own and I am genuinely happy when another friend has that little smile and say 'Lau, I have to tell you something'. How wonderful that is! I need to take the compliment 'I thought of you and when I knew it was okay', as a compliment because I am involved in someone life without even being present. On the other hand, it is difficult for me to explain to them how I feel and how I view things in that area because I am different and do experience these things oppositely as they do. However, this month taught me how nice it is to be by myself and be okay with that. I have listened to my feelings and been proud of the person I have become this month. Spending 10 days with family is exhausting enough and I have come out of it people closer to the person I am happy to be with. I have laughed this month, I have cried, I have fallen down but have gotten up. As I move forward into April, I want to continue being this person I am becoming. I am getting more responsibility at work, people actually listen to me when I give input (even though I still feel like an imposter most of the time), I have spent some lovely times with friends and by myself. April, here I come!
Things that have put a smile on my face this month:
- These six fairy tales for the modern woman made me smile, especially number I.
- I snorted through these horrible medieval cat paintings, what a treat and what a laugh.
- This thought-provoking New Yorker article on how the current economy is basically wanting you to work yourself to death and how this is stimulated and encouraged by people in charge. I made me think about my own career path and how to make sure I am never put in that position.
- These videos especially made me laugh, squeal and have nice feelings: Wes Anderson Honest Trailer, Kumail Najiani Tells a Story, Lucas the Spider, and People eating Korean BBQ.
- Three songs have made my month: Dreams by Fleetwood Mac (this tune!), About this Life by LEAF (the lyrics!) and Cinderella by Voctave (Acapella! Disney! Medley!).
- As a friend of mine and I were talking about possibly taking a trip to Ireland, I found a really nice article in Happinez magazine about a person who went on a fairy hunting trip to Ireland! Now I am even more inspired to go and meet the fairy folk. Maybe they allow me to stay and I can live happily ever after.
- I'm enamored and obsessed with Lucinda Riley's Seven Sisters book series. It is like 'Who do you think you are' wrapped up in mystery, discovery and traveling about the world. Oh my! I want to read them all NOW. Books, how I love thee.
- And finally, there is a super cool podcast on linguistics (yes you read that right) and it's called Lingthusiasm (such a great word) and their new episode on 'untranslatable words' is a fun one and you should listen to it, even if you haven't studied linguistics. Language is cool people!
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